The Bluebird Widow

Fear. We all have experienced it. It can range in different levels involving different topics. We can fear spiders, public speaking, not getting into the college we want, rejection from others, end of relationships, the list can go on and on. And then there is the big one. The one that stops people in their … Continue reading You Can Feel Afraid, But You Don’t Have to Live Afraid.

Today, on the 5th anniversary of Erik’s passing, I was sitting and wondering about life. There are so many uncertainties and so many ups and downs, and then I thought about life’s purpose. And my purpose. Then I reread one of my favorite cards written by my late husband. One that always amazes me. I … Continue reading What is Purpose?

The term blended' family can be defined in many different ways. I became part of a blended family the minute I met my husband Erik because he came with two “extras”, his son and daughter. They were around 3 1/2 and 1 1/2 years old when I came into their life and they quickly became … Continue reading Love Knows No Boundaries – The Beauty of Blended Families

I struggle a lot with insecurities, as a lot of women do. When I see myself in a mirror I see all the flaws. I focus on them. “My nose is too big”, “I have cellulite on my thighs”, “Ugh, look at my arms”....and I do it All. The. Time. I will pick my looks … Continue reading Choose To Thank Your Body, Not Attack It

There are voices inside our heads. Everyone has them. Sometimes they are but a mere whisper, other times they are screaming and we can barely hear anything else. They can be full of guilt, self-doubt, anger and most of all...fear. You will sit and wonder “Who would take on such a mess as me?”, “Why … Continue reading This Is Me After Loss

I’ve had a lot on my mind (although I always do...hello, constant thinker here) and thought I would share some things. It’s a new year and in less than two months it’ll be the two year anniversary of losing Erik. I wrote about my first year and all the “firsts” and now I’m going to … Continue reading Reflecting Back On Year Two Since My Husband’s Death

I have had many people, more than I expected actually, compare their break-ups or divorce to the death of my husband. While I am beyond empathetic for those going through a difficult break-up or divorce it is not the same as a death. It just isn’t. There is a big difference in someone being gone … Continue reading Comparing Divorce to Death

I have many scars from this life. Some of my scars are superficial, barely noticeable at all. While others are deeper, scars people can not see on the outside but I carry them with me daily. Then there are the scars I choose. Today I got two beautiful tattoos done. One, of a bluebird. My … Continue reading Our Scars Give Us Power and Purpose

There is a lot going on in our country right now, lots of division and lots of hate. I was sitting here thinking about it and trying to make sense of it, I can't. It made me think of my work place. I work with a group of women, all from different backgrounds, different races, … Continue reading What You Learn When You See People for What They Truly Are