After my husband passed away I took a little time off from work, about a month and a half. When it was time to go back I worried about a lot of things. You just can't imagine all the feelings that going back to work (and "normal" everyday life) brings up in a situation like … Continue reading Those Shaking Hands – The Struggles To Head Back To Work After Becoming A Widow
The "what-ifs", these are some of the hardest things to work through during the grief journey. It brings out regret, guilt and anger. Recently I had an appointment with a cardiologist to have a stress test performed. For those who don't know what that is, it's basically having pictures of your heart taken, then walking … Continue reading The “What-ifs” Can Eat At You After The Death Of A Loved One
So a few weeks ago I was watching a Friends episode, maybe you know it, it was the one where Monica and Chandler go talk to a pregnant woman who they might potentially adopt from. There is a moment when Chandler is talking to the woman alone and he says, "I love my wife more … Continue reading Grieving The Child We Never Got To Have
2016, the year everything changed. Last year when it struck midnight, as I kissed my husband, I thought this would be my first full year as his wife, I thought it would be the beginning of so many things for us. Instead this year was the ending of so much. On March 3 my husband … Continue reading 2016- The Year Everything Changed
This is a rough writing, one I don't plan to reread or correct after I write it so it may have some issues but I just had thoughts and feelings that needed to get out. I've been sitting here thinking about this past year. I know I already posted about it but I wanted to … Continue reading How Can Time Continue When The World Ended That Day?
I haven't written a blog in about a month. Honestly I haven't had the energy to even think about it. It's been a trying few weeks. Holiday season is tough and it's my first time experiencing it as a widow. I've noticed that sometimes the anticipation of a holiday, or really any special occasion/event, can be … Continue reading 5 Things That I’ve Experienced After Loss Leading Up to Christmas
Grief is ugly. It's brutal. It shows up with force when you least expect it and brings you to your knees. It's unapologetic. It's relentless. I'll give you a glimpse into it. I could never truly describe it in words that could make you understand unless you, yourself, have been through it as well. The … Continue reading Grief is Ugly, but God is Good