I've never been a huge Valentine's Day person. I don't dislike the holiday, I just have never really cared much about getting flowers or gifts for it. I think it's a million times more special when you get flowers or a card/gift on a completely random day and then you know that your spouse/significant other … Continue reading You’re My Significant Otter – Valentine’s Day Without My Partner
After my husband passed away I took a little time off from work, about a month and a half. When it was time to go back I worried about a lot of things. You just can't imagine all the feelings that going back to work (and "normal" everyday life) brings up in a situation like … Continue reading Those Shaking Hands – The Struggles To Head Back To Work After Becoming A Widow
The "what-ifs", these are some of the hardest things to work through during the grief journey. It brings out regret, guilt and anger. Recently I had an appointment with a cardiologist to have a stress test performed. For those who don't know what that is, it's basically having pictures of your heart taken, then walking … Continue reading The “What-ifs” Can Eat At You After The Death Of A Loved One
So a few weeks ago I was watching a Friends episode, maybe you know it, it was the one where Monica and Chandler go talk to a pregnant woman who they might potentially adopt from. There is a moment when Chandler is talking to the woman alone and he says, "I love my wife more … Continue reading Grieving The Child We Never Got To Have
2016, the year everything changed. Last year when it struck midnight, as I kissed my husband, I thought this would be my first full year as his wife, I thought it would be the beginning of so many things for us. Instead this year was the ending of so much. On March 3 my husband … Continue reading 2016- The Year Everything Changed
This is a rough writing, one I don't plan to reread or correct after I write it so it may have some issues but I just had thoughts and feelings that needed to get out. I've been sitting here thinking about this past year. I know I already posted about it but I wanted to … Continue reading How Can Time Continue When The World Ended That Day?
I haven't written a blog in about a month. Honestly I haven't had the energy to even think about it. It's been a trying few weeks. Holiday season is tough and it's my first time experiencing it as a widow. I've noticed that sometimes the anticipation of a holiday, or really any special occasion/event, can be … Continue reading 5 Things That I’ve Experienced After Loss Leading Up to Christmas